ssearch/output_test.txt

Query: Passages that mention Kristi or Kiick
Vector: 20, BM25: 20, overlap: 3, merged: 37, re-ranked to: 15
  vector-only: 17, bm25-only: 17, both: 3

================================================================================
=== [1] 2026-01-03.txt  (score: -0.780)  [vector+bm25]
================================================================================
January 3, 2026

We left Manzanita for Portland. Hanging out at Powell's now. Bought $200 of
books. Shipped about half back.

Received this from Millie:

Colleagues,

I write to share some very sad and difficult news. Kristi Kiick passed away
yesterday afternoon after a battle with LMS over the past couple of years. She
was home and surrounded by her close family at the time of her passing.

Kristi was a dear friend, mentor, and collaborator to me, and I am struggling to
process the loss and find the words to share with all of you, to whom she also
has meant so much. I'm grateful to have a community of colleagues I also
consider friends.

The family welcomes condolences if you wish to reach out, though responses may
not be forthcoming at this time.

A more formal announcement will come through COE in the coming days.

Thinking of all of you.
Millie


---

Write more about computer crime.



Directions:

================================================================================
=== [2] 2021-04-21.txt  (score: -1.134)  [bm25-only]
================================================================================
E

On Apr 21, 2021, at 9:35 AM, Kiick, Kristi <kiick@udel.edu> wrote:

Lol!  Yes, Chairs whine and cheese coming up on Monday!

From: Furst, Eric
Sent: Tuesday, April 20, 2021 1:58 PM
To: Kiick, Kristi <kiick@udel.edu>
Subject: Re: CBE EAC materials

On Apr 20, 2021, at 8:38 AM, Kiick, Kristi <kiick@udel.edu> wrote:


Roger that!  Will pass on to Yegor.  I won't make fun of you, but I am curious
as to what you like about metal.


Mostly the devil worship.

Hail Satan!

(Do we have a wine and whine and cheese coming up?)

================================================================================
=== [3] 2026-01-08.txt  (score: -4.768)  [vector+bm25]
================================================================================
---

Talked to Millie about the trip, Manzanita, and the house.

Millie was going on long walks with Kristi. Sometimes they talked about her
medical treatments.  Kristi was undergoing an experimental treatment. Other
times they may have talked about other things. It took an emotional toll on
Millie. Millie had spent the morning writing her reflections about Kristi for an
upcoming UDaily article. Kristi had reached out to Millie and let her know that
she was experiencing liver failure. Millie wrote a letter, but regretted writing
it so late and sending it by mail. She's not sure if Kristi got it. Millie was
teary. She asked me to give her a hug. I had my CHEG 231 tissues. She laughed at
that.

================================================================================
=== [4] 2024-07-19.txt  (score: -6.186)  [bm25-only]
================================================================================
July 19, 2024

Read Kristi's blog yesterday. More chemo. Tumors in her lungs and liver.

Teresa and I discussed the word aphorism. The Oxford dictionary on the computer
defines it as, "a pithy observation that contains a general truth, such as, 'if
it ain't broke, don't fix it.'" I associated it with a banal statement because I
misunderstood the word "pithy". Pithy: concise and forcefully expressive. So,
perhaps I was thinking of banal aphorisms?

Banal: so lacking in originality as to be obvious and boring

synonyms: trite, clichéd, vapid

vapid: offering nothing that is stimulating or challenging

trite: (of a remark, opinion, or idea) overused and consequently of little
import; lacking originality or freshness

So, when I say that 99% of social media is banal aphorism, does that really
capture the sentiment that I feel?

================================================================================
=== [5] 2020-12-04.txt  (score: -6.573)  [bm25-only]
================================================================================
Eric,
Congrats on the AAAS fellow selection. Awesome and well deserved.

If I recall, this year is your last yr as dept chair (the advisory board brought
this up). I have been thinking even b4 the pandemic that it would have been
great if you could stay longer for X more yrs. I reason that you have been doing
a great job and know this admin well. With the current situation, discussions
for a transition are not easy, and I’m not sure anyone is in the mood for a
change (I’m not, and the dept is in great hands, why change?). I can drop an
email to some of the senior faculty to get support for this proposal. Thoughts?
Dion

New AAAS Fellows
University of Delaware Professors Kristi Kiick, Eric Furst honored for
scientific contributions

================================================================================
=== [6] 2003-11-12.txt  (score: -8.280)  [bm25-only]
================================================================================
I want to quit my job

It is overwhelming
It makes me feel like an idiot
Every day is a struggle with my weaknesses

I could use some feedback
Just a little feedback

There is an urge to complain to Kristi or Chris
But what will that do?
It will just bring them down, sap their energy

================================================================================
=== [7] 2021-03-06.txt  (score: -9.185)  [bm25-only]
================================================================================
March 6, 2021

YOU ARE A MACHINE AND YOU CAN PROGRAM YOURSELF.

An email sent to Darrin is below. This reflects a change in my attitude and
perspective.


Darrin,

I came to a realization last night:

You, me, Kristi, Thomas, LaShanda, (just to name a few) are some of the best and
smartest academic engineers in the country. I would even put LTT in that
category.

We are totally getting played by second (third) raters at UD — our facilities
pal PK, research office and AR/CR, academic admin (RM), and the “budgeteers” of
Hullihen.

I don’t know what that means in terms of immediate strategy, but it definitely
means that we can win if we put our minds to it. And by win, I mean make our
university a better functioning, more prestigious institution capable of doing
world-class research and education.

Eric

================================================================================
=== [8] 2015-04-07.txt  (score: -9.305)  [bm25-only]
================================================================================
-- April 7, 2015

Be careful of hiding away in your office.

Yesterday I felt an accute sense of depression. It comes and goes.

--

Managing a creavtive enterprise

Best practices for non-profits
     3-year horizon / budget planning
     Balanced within 1%?
     Overall administrative costs - guidelines?

--

Where would I lead the department?

--

Fun meeting with Kristi today. Threw lots of ideas back and forth. It's nice to
generate ideas with colleagues. Keep up this momentum.

--

What kind of problems?
Who identifies the problems?
How do you differentiate a real problem from a red herring?
(If someone has a problem, it is a problem. It may not be a big or important
problem, but if so, the resolution should be reasonable and rapid.)

Let's take a step back (candor)

uncertainty
instability
lack of candor

create a fertile environment, keep it healthy, and watch for the things that
undermine it.

================================================================================
=== [9] 2022-01-12.txt  (score: -9.518)  [bm25-only]
================================================================================
01/12/2022


The first thing I think about in the morning is how screwed over I feel by the
senior faculty of my department and by the administration of the college and
university.

170 more days.

I guess I need to let these feelings go. As I've already thought it through, my
situation gives me the freedom that I've paid my dues and that I don't owe
anyone anything.


---

From Kiick:

I know you are ready to exit this mainly thankless job, but I will miss you!

My response:

It is fun to work with you and Darrin, especially, and the other chairs, too.
It’s a great group of chairs. Maybe the best in years.

The work is important. I’m glad I did it. I learned a lot personally and grew my
skills. Professionally (and personally) I’ve achieved pretty much everything
that I’ve wanted to achieve in life before hitting 50.

================================================================================
=== [10] 2020-08-10.txt  (score: -10.391)  [bm25-only]
================================================================================
civil: courteous and polite
courteous: polite, respectful, or considerate in manner
polite: having or showing behavior that is respectful and considerate of other
people

"Our standard is to be respectful and considerate of other people"

---

Cicero:

Men decide far more problems by hate, love, lust, rage, sorrow, joy, hope, fear,
illusion, or some other inward emotion, than by reality, authority, any legal
standard, judicial precedent, or statute.

"Diversity in council, unity in command."

https://iep.utm.edu/cicero/


Drucker:
Dissent... is essential...


Governance as Leadership



---


TODAY

Wrote diary entry
Made quick changes to ef1j.org
Email
Work
AIP board meeting on board practices
        Duty of care
        Governance as Leadership - BoardSource
Meeting with Kristi
Proofs for Langmuir

================================================================================
=== [11] 2023-03-10.txt  (score: -10.544)  [vector+bm25]
================================================================================
The memoir is peppered with off-hand references to the war -- "I got into a
terrible fight about this with my cousin Mietek, who was two years older (he
perished in Warsaw, like Stefan). (p. 31); Janek was a good, obliging person
with a somewhat lethargic manner and a great sense of humor. I believe that he,
too, was killed by the Germans. (p. 65-66); No, I did not see it as an omen of
the cruelty to come—that cruelty would have been beyond my imagining in any
case. (p. 126) -- and he writes a lengthy passage about the emptying of Lvov
(presumably of its Jewish population):

Little remains for me to describe. Meanwhile, a host of objects in the house,
and the streets I walked, which have not been mentioned, clamor for attention.
What is it about the objects and cobblestones surrounding us in childhood that
is so mag­ical, so irreplaceable?

================================================================================
=== [12] 2025-08-13.txt  (score: -10.588)  [vector-only]
================================================================================
Here is a related passage from my journals:

I thought you’d appreciate this: I was telling Tom about some of my
difficulties as chair (or my personal difficulties in my role as chair) and he
said that he heard me, but that if he went to the department, he’s pretty sure
everyone there would say that, "I’m doing a bang-up job.” He said that I’m
usually doing my best work when I express the most doubt in myself and my
performance. I guess I did that a lot in grad school, too.

---

Katie Hafner and I talk about Kevin Mitnick and the Morris Worm. Katie visited
Mitnick in prison. He refused to speak to him, but she used "social engineering"
to get in. She spent time with Suzie (???) -- an awful experience. We discuss
her next work on Blodgett and Pockels. Katie is surprised that I know her. We
record something for her podcast. Katie dislikes Issac

================================================================================
=== [13] 2025-09-14.txt  (score: -10.779)  [vector-only]
================================================================================
---

"The episode is a reminder that even well-designed tools need strong safeguards
and human oversight."

Counter-example: Dr. Strangelove

---

Thinking about sharing some writing about home with Mom to see if I can
encourage her to write more about her upbringing and stories:

Enter your query (or type 'exit' to quit): Find passages that describe small
towns, especially associated with family stories and experiences.
Loading llama_index.core.storage.kvstore.simple_kvstore from
./storage_exp/docstore.json.
Loading llama_index.core.storage.kvstore.simple_kvstore from
./storage_exp/index_store.json.

Response:

**Summary Theme:**
The collection comprises personal writing and reading notes from an author's
intellectual journey, focusing on small towns and their cultural significance.
The text highlights family connections, local history, and the impact of
industrial decline on communities.

**Matching Files:**

1. file_path: ./data/2023-08-20.txt - Describes class stratification in small
towns like Creslo and the experiences of people from different backgrounds,
emphasizing the interconnectedness despite societal divisions.

================================================================================
=== [14] 2025-10-13.txt  (score: -10.890)  [bm25-only]
================================================================================
3. Personal Embeddedness

Details like “frustrated with my printers,” “teaching new things at school,” and
references to “rheology” and “interfacial chemistry” point to lived experience.
While an AI could mimic that content, these details are integrated in a way that
feels personally meaningful rather than mechanically inserted to increase
specificity.

4. Ambiguity and Self-Doubt

The rhetorical questions—“(Do I contribute to it?)”, “What is it response
to?”—convey genuine self-questioning. AI models usually generate questions to
invite elaboration or simulate reflection, but they seldom sustain authentic
uncertainty across multiple passages.

5. Stylistic Markers of Academic Thought

The mention of “vendor lock-in,” “proprietary systems,” and institutional
critique reflects an academic mindset familiar with open scholarship culture.
The tone and phrasing here echo academic-influenced self-reflection rather than
the kind of balanced explanatory tone typical of AI outputs.

---

================================================================================
=== [15] 2026-02-20.txt  (score: -10.939)  [bm25-only]
================================================================================
**Files contributing to the answer:**
- *file_path: ./data/2021-04-23.txt*: This excerpt mentions "PR function" as a
key adaptation for social organization, suggesting
that the ability to delude and our feelings being reflexive responses are part
of this PR function.
- *file_path: ./data/2021-05-15.txt*: The passage discusses the implications of
Buddhism's understanding of the mind, particularly
its alignment with modern scientific insights into the brain's reflexive
reactions to sensory input and the role of social
coordination in cognition.
- *file_path: ./data/2026-01-29.txt*: The excerpt provides a phenomenological
perspective on Buddhism, explaining that the
illusion of self is socially functional and contributes to collective narratives
and social coordination.

Source documents:
2021-02-04.txt  ./data/2021-02-04.txt  1.790
2020-06-01.txt  ./data/2020-06-01.txt  1.246
2022-04-17.